Ace of Cups, Chinese Tarot
Theme: Grace, serenity
Card: Ace of Cups
"A woman scholar enjoys the chrysanthemums in her garden."
According to the deck companion the chrysanthemums symbolise "ease and retirement".
Other takes on C1 are:
"...it shows that a seed of emotional awareness has been planted in your life although you may not yet recognize it." (link)
"...it is about new beginnings and although it usually means love it can indicate new beginnings in other areas of life." (link)
"...the beginning of period of strong emotional health for you. Expect copious joy, happiness, and love to surround you during this time." (link)
After yet some days (couple of weeks) of shadow work, drain-work and sincere soul-searching there's yet another new seed of deep soul satisfaction and emotional gratitude planted, leaving a sense of calm grace and serenity in its wake. A feeling of being surrounded by and filled with love, hope and trust. A deep feeling only reachable through self-awareness, self-acceptance, self-love and surrender to life as it is.
A time to 'retire' for a moment, to acknowledge and enjoy the light feeling - knowing it is the well-deserved fruits from a period of intense, important, evolutionary work (and at the same time stay detached from as well the fact that it all probably passes the general eye unnoticed, as well as from the feeling that it is unappreciated, devalued or overlooked)!
Which of course all sounds like such a cliche, but I guess that I've reached the phase were I have no other choice than to accept it to be true!
To the ego's dissatisfaction - as it somehow still has the longing to fit into the large crowd, be acknowledged and praised, and prefers the endless outside search for people and things to blame for "bad" things, and and the same to produce and induce happiness, rather than to look in the mirror, take soul-responsibility, and put the shovel down where it stands!
Life is truly a peculiar, but exhilarating, phenomenon!
(Earlier: battle for the right to serenity.)
Deck #15: Chinese Tarot