Four of Disks, Toth Tarot


Theme: "Higher Calling"

Card: Four of Disks ('Four of Pentacles') - Power
"Because you're worth it, be a "professional in your own interest": Clear out that which does not suit you. Discover the world and establish your place in it. Create new forms and appropriate standards.
Each and every person has special talents. Therefore do not play the hero or the loser. Your strengths and your weaknesses have their own values. Make sure that this pays off. The most valuable talents are those that bring about the most benefits. They are most useful when as many desires as possible can be fulfilled and as many fears as possible can be abolished therewith.
LOVE " not just a matter of feelings. Love also means to support each other in each building their own existence. Give others the keys to you. Emphasize the particularity of your situation. Let others know about your world."
HAPPINESS "You can do something and have something that distinguishes you in your personal character. With your knowledge and skills you can create a satisfactory estate, a solid base. Enjoy your  qualities and commit to your skills. Do not hang around with phonies and hypocrites. You can do better!"
SUCCESS "With this card, it is sometimes important to distance yourself consciously in order to emphasize your personal intrinsic value or even to discover and explore it. But sometimes it also depends on opening up more and letting as many people as possible participate with their own abilities and accomplishments. Be considerate of the community. But also expect that this consideration refers to your specific talents and tasks."

From The Toth Tarot Book

This is really one exclusive version of the Four of Pent's. It usually goes along the line of "greed" and "possessiveness". Like:
"In a general context, the Four of Pentacles Tarot card can indicate that you are holding on to people, possessions, situations or past issues. It can be an indication that there are deep seated issues affecting you that you need to process and let go of."
"...can indicate that you may be trying very hard to cling onto the people or possessions that give you a sense of security. You may be holding onto things in an unhealthy, possessive, controlling or toxic way or someone may be holding onto you in such a manner. It can indicate that you need to establish your boundaries or respect the boundaries of other people. The Four of Pentacles can also indicate a lack of openness, blocking or obstructing progress, keeping to yourself or a sense of isolation. It can represent wealth, greed, materialism and penny pinching
" (thetarotguide)


A rather interesting combination of interpretations!
My feelings are in sort of a clinging state - but I try to remain as detached from them as I can, and act from a place of (authentic) power as much as I'm capable of.
And I'm firmly convinced that this particular type of challenge is a great part of my higher calling.
To act in line with my soul and essence (special talents), no matter how much old feelings and emotions push and pull. The two-directions theme of this Moon cycle, written about yesterday. "emphasize your personal intrinsic value"
And again: continue giving of and from my true self (let others know about my world), no matter how much the head and Ego focuses on possession, clinging and getting (the greed theme). Staying open when the Ego wants to close down in fear.