Four of Pentacles, Steampunk Tarot
Theme: "as if life was a machine", being a cog in a machinery
Card: Four of Pentacles
"If you get the Four of Pentacles in your reading, take a look at your relationship to your resources. It may be that you are in a situation requiring a little tightening of the belt. More likely, though, is the case that you are holding on too tightly. In your effort to make yourself safe and secure, you are actually cutting off the flow of energy, resources, and people into your life."
I feel a little bit like I just mechanically and emotionless do stuff now, but yes, because I'm "gathering some sort of power". Investment now, "in hope of" results later on. And of course, results there will be, but which?