Judgement + Eight of Wands, Infinite Visions + Crystal

29.12.2020

Themes: "perceiving more perspectives than your head can cope with - what to do with it?!" (a deck having the extras Dark Magician and Dark Priestess) + "something is crystallising"

Many feelings and emotions are tumbling around in me now - some ugly ones, earlier repressed, but also new ones. And it happens to be so that I am blessed with having the time to deeply feel and explore them, and luckily enough I also keep stumbling upon new pieces of information from other souls interested in the hidden realms!

Yesterday I made some great discoveries reading The Solar Return Chart: Your Year Ahead, by Joanne Wickenburg!
Today I found lovely descriptions regarding North/South Node placements at i.thehoroscope.co!

Certainly "more than the head can cope with", but so much food for the soul - crystallising to "results" in its own time, for application when the time is ripe!

I'm experiencing rather awesome things now - but it's rather tiring for the head/ego, not managing to follow or understand neither the process, or its purpose. Nothing else is to expect, as the processes take place in the hidden recesses of the soul and the unconscious!

CARDS
Infinite Visions Tarot: Judgement
"You must decide to what extent you will change your outer life because you are changed on the inside. You have reached a crossroad where your transformation is taking place. You have learned from your experiences and you are like a new person, leaving behind the old you, and now you embark upon a new path." Yes. There is transformation taking place, but not yet fully "done". So I'm taking my time now, letting feelings and their teachings settle, with great help and support from my tools (cards, horoscope, synchronicity) and dear friends. I'm careful with decision making, as my Solar Return heavily suggests waiting for circumstances and others to "make my decisions". Not as in TAKE my decision, but as in 'show the way'. Circumstances will let me know when the time is ripe for action of some kind - and hopefully also which action. This year is a Water/Earth-year for me, which is rather challenging, as I am heavy in the Air-element by birth. NO planet in Air this year...! Almost all planets in the Western hemisphere - all in the Eastern in my natal. Wow. 
I've never felt so in tuned with my intuition as right now. Lovely - right? Yes, but at the same time feeling quite uncomfortable and foreign to me! 
Crystal Tarot: Eight of Wands - Projects
I feel that things are going very, very fast now (faster than the head can cope with) - inside (spiritually/wands) that is! From the outside it looks as if almost nothing happens..!
"Combined intentions and ideas in achieving a goal." Yes, many things and perspective coming together now - inside - with the goal being "transforming to the next level". A death of something old - beginning something new. Or at least in a new way. Yet another "slightly better" me is being born. Right in time for a Full Moon in Cancer (where the ASC in my Solar Return is placed) and a shine new year coming up! 

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Eight of Wands
"Movement, fast paced change, action, alignment"
"...a high level of energy that propels you forward to reach your goals at a much faster pace than ever before."
"...encourages you to go with the flow; don't resist it. Everything is moving fast right now, so make the most of this forward momentum to manifest your goals and dreams. Allow the energy of the Universe to flow through you and propel you closer to your goal. Trying to slow things down because you're not ready or you're fearful about the unknown will just waste this opportunity. Use the energy instead to fuel positive change and produce significant results."
"...also invites you to be laser-focused with your intentions and actions. Determine what you want to manifest and then align all of your resources and energy to focus on that singular goal. Remove all distractions and devote yourself to the task with total concentration, determination and will. This experience can be highly productive, allowing you to accomplish a lot in a short time." (biddy)