Lovers + CKn, St.Croix + Girlfriend

16.03.2020

"I think the tarot is a visual encyclopedia of the soul,
a tool to help us find answers to life's questions."
Lisa de St.Croix

Theme(s): "sensing your own path/using synchronicity as a guide" + "being a (girl)friend"

"synchronicity for someone on the spiritual path is that moment in the fabric of time when we suddenly and briefly become consciously aware that we have made a deeper connection with the universe or that which is greater than our individual self." (link)

"With synchronicity, all the resources we need are made available for us at the precise moment that is appropriate. The people who come into our lives are the ones we need at that moment in time. Everything is perfect. We only need to recognize this to tune into the flow. Everything happens for a reason and every experience is a learning experience."
- Alex Chua (link)

Yes. I have to get back into that flow, into connection.
I stated it rather clearly yesterday I think. As a reflection from receiving the Steampunk Tarot - "being a clog in a machinery". I've got to get out of that feeling again. Regain that deep connection with the Universe that I had created after years and years of "work". That place where everything feel perfectly right - no matter how 'good or bad' it looks from the outside, viewed with the eyes of an Ego.
Regain 'the feeling' - the trust in being taken care of by The Universe. Now I've fallen back to merely 'knowing'. Knowing that everything that happens is right, as it is, and how it should be - but I don't FEEL it. There's to much Ego/Pain Body/'little self' active - that wants to do, change, 'get out' of circumstances.
The Ego is still too desperate to get back - stuck in the attitude that It can 'take me back' into the feeling by doing something. Just like the majority of the humans in the world think they can do something to make all 'bad stuff' go away - refusing to stop, wake up, take responsibility, look inwards/upwards, and - CHANGE. Change their attitudes, their thoughts, their energies - realising that the 'bad stuff' are just mirrors to our disconnected and frightened insides. 

It's quite symbolically suiting/synchroniced that the "machinery as a whole" is sort of put to a halt at this very moment. Our 'system' doesn't hold up to the powers of Nature!
You can't vaccinate against Nature!!
The answer is there, in plain sight (which is the best place to hide something): in the word AGAINST!
As long as we (collectively) work (together or not) in an attitude of being against Nature (and not accepting her lessons - thinking we know better) she will reflect 'against' (resistance/negativity) back to us!!

At least this is how my perception, logic and thoughts go.

"By living aligned with the present moment, you also align your will with the universal will, which you could call "the will of God". You don't have a separate will. The separate will wants to enhance or strengthen one's sense of self. The separate will is concerned with the "me", the "I", the ego. But there is a divine Consciousness, the one Consciousness, there is an evolutionary impulse. What we are doing here at every moment, is to align ourselves with that.
    Non-resistance is vital because as long as you are in resistance to the present moment, you will be trapped in the little egoic will. The egoic will needs to subside - that's surrender to the present moment, and surrender to what is. When you align yourself with what is internally, it looks at first almost like a position of weakness, and it can be misinterpreted as something that prevents you from taking effective action. But the acceptance of what is, is totally compatible with responding to whatever the present moment requires. Whatever wants to be created, manifested, done, at this moment - to be aligned with that, you need to first accept whatever form this moment takes."
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"If you are stuck in the mud somewhere, you don't say, "Okay, I am in the mud, I have to accept it, and here I am - I'm not taking any action because I have to accept what is". This moment is already always as it is, and there's nothing you can do about that. That's what you accept. Then, action that arises has a different energy to it. The will that flows into what you do is no longer egoic. When you have not accepted this moment, the will goes against the Universe - that is what the ego does. It is negative, it fights something that it says shouldn't be there. If you use negativity, you are trapped in ego."
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"Once the opening is there, through acceptance, the next step that you take will be much more powerful. There's a Buddhist term "right action", that can only arise out of the right state of Consciousness. You have to get out of the ego first before you can have right action. "
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"Become friendly with what is, and you become intelligent for the first time."
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"You have activated the intelligence of the totality. It's not necessarily coming through this form. That is why people speak of synchronistic things happening, suddenly a helpful factor comes in, suddenly the right person appears, the right thing happens." (eckharttolle)

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My Ego currently (once again) craves for these synchronistic signs, events, persons, etc, to 'show up'. But - I think/feel/know it presently only looks where it wants to find them!! It discretely searches for confirmation only of it's own ideas and thoughts - and gets irritated when 'the Universe withholds them'...!
Stuck with 'the eyes on the prize' and in 'good ideas about how to reach it'. 
I can imagine how The Universe laughs, patiently 'hinders', 'delays', and waits for my Ego to step back and 'let go, and let God'. 

CARDS
St.Croix: The Lovers
"The energy created by love and the physical act of love is the creative force made manifest. This union is transpersonal, larger than just the two lovers. Tapping into this energy creates the possibility of life, of connecting with the divine and also a powerful toll for magic. At the moment of climax, prayers sent out will be fertilized."
"Love can inspire us to grow beyond our usual boundaries and become creators. Choose what to do with the energy created by the union of lovers."
Girlfriend's Tarot: Knight of Cups
"Upside down, the card warns that you are showing a lack of determination and allowing yourself to be limited by your own narrow-mindedness" (association: the ego searching for answer only in known and historically comfortable places)

"According to Vedanta, there are only two symptoms of enlightenment, just two indications that a transformation is taking place within you toward a higher consciousness. The first symptom is that you stop worrying. Things don't bother you anymore. You become light-hearted and full of joy. The second symptom is that you encounter more and more meaningful coincidences in your life, more and more synchronicities. And this accelerates to the point where you actually experience the miraculous."

The Tarot de St Croix and The Girlfriend's Tarot