Seven of Swords, Romantic Tarot
Theme: "along the roads of love and relationships"
Card: Seven of Swords - The Courtesan ('a prostitute, especially one with wealthy or upper-class clients')
"It was all ready, thought on and organised to the smallest detail. Something prevented the beautiful folly from breaking free."
Alone at the dining table.
Traditional illustration: "The Seven of Swords shows a man sneaking away from a military camp with five swords in his arms. He looks over his shoulder at the two upright swords he has left behind. The smile on his face suggests that he is proud of himself for having slipped away without being noticed." (biddy) That's what he thinks. The truth is that he is very noticed. I just chose not to "call him" or rebuke him for his actions and choices. I take notes, continue to watch, learn, and raise my understanding - regarding the causes to his actions and to my inner re-actions.
"...you need to be strategic in what you do. [...] you must prioritise what's important to you and direct your focus and attention on the few tasks that will move you closer to your goals. It's the 80-20 rule: 20% of your work will account for 80% of your results, so focus on the 20%." (biddy) I declare that I am available, but I don't insist on helping or pinpoint what I can help with. And at home I do what feels right, and when it feels right, and of course that which must be done - but not what "should" or "could" be done. Very careful about this. Continuous checking with dreams and cards.
"...you may need to use shortcuts or the 'backdoor' to get what you want. Rather than dutifully following the process, you may need to find ways to resolve your problem quickly so you can move towards your goals." (biddy) Not in a deceptive manner I assume, but in an intuitive manner that might be "out of the box/order" rationally speaking.
And... "Here's the thing: you can't be everything to everyone, and sometimes you need to put your own needs and priorities first, even if others may not agree with you or understand where you are coming from." (biddy) And this goes both ways. I think much of the "slipping away unnoticed" is related to 'instinctively feeling the need to', (not being able to understand neither "where it comes from" or the consequences of it), and not deception per se. Stuck in...
"You may attempt to run away from commitment, responsibility, hard work or love. You may procrastinate, letting problems slip and become worse because you do not want to deal with them." Man, how often I wish others found it was as fun and developing as I do to...
"Sometimes you just have to face what has to be faced." when it comes to your own weaknesses, and the hidden development potential that resides in them.