Six of Shields, Javanne Tarot
Javanne Tarot - a deck I didn't really care for image wise when I decided to buy it 4-5 years ago, but I liked the way it was created/born, and it turned out to be a deck that really speaks to me.
Theme: "to paint a dream", "that which comes to you effortlessly"
But no matter which person, you might have to work with yourself and your fears, and allow yourself to be/feel happy :)
Call it the Upper Limit Problem,
call it Creating Authentic Power or healing Frightened Parts of your Personality,
call it Rewiring Your Brain,
call it Living in the Present Moment.
Card: Six of Shields ('Six of Pentacles')
"A person stands under the open sky and two beings close in on her/him - a demon and an angle. These are two contradicting forces in us. The six star-shields have each their own influence. One of the stars is clearer and larger than the others. It seems to unite the contrasting forces into a new whole. Is the sky threatening us? Do we stand here as humans in an exposed position? Are we being attacked from the air or threatened by the red snake below? Or are we receiving help?"
1st position: "A war is taking place inside of you. Contradicting needs and feelings wage war on each other. They fight about the right to be heard. You want to serve the whole and you have an overall - often subconscious - idea that you can do this. To be able to you think you must put aside your own needs. But remember: Being a human being entails both unselfishness and egoistic actions. You are advised to listen to both sides - your self-sacrificing soul and your natural, earthly urges."
This interpretation is a little bit different than the "classic" one. A common keyword for the Six of Pentacles is 'Charity' - giving or receiving it.
"Even if you are not financially wealthy, you offer up your time, energy, love and support to those who are in need, knowing it will be appreciated. Giving of your time or your wisdom is often just as spiritually fulfilling as giving away money or gifts, and the intangible gift of your presence is received just as well, if not better. There may be times when you wonder if you can truly afford to give generously to others - and the wise advice of the Six of Pentacles is to trust that every contribution you make is valued and will come back to you threefold." (biddytarot)
Keep giving (and receiving) although feeling fear (having that war taking place inside of you), and things will come effortlessly - not counting the considerable effort that have to be put into not succumbing to fears and doubts :)
Contradicting needs and feelings "comes with the job" - being a human. "Being a spiritual being having a human experience".