Strength + The Magician, Chinese + Rosa Orm

Themes: "poise, grace" + "sisu"

CARDS
Chinese Tarot: Strength (R)
"Courage. Energy. Resolution. Defiance. Action."
Reversed "Pettiness. Lack of faith." Yes. A little bit of that.
Rosa Orm Tarot: The Magician (R)
"Directed force. Concentration on work or goal, realizing dreams. Thought into action, plans into reality. Communication. Strong will, creativity, genius." Not so sure about that.
"Concentrating on bad purpose. Destructive, manipulative, dominant. Abuse of power, communication denied." Yes, much of this. How much of it am I responsible for - sisu invested in the "wrong" direction?