Ten of Wands, Elora Tarot

06.02.2020

Theme: "co-operation and management, with a yin perspective" - as the deck is a "co-operation" deck. Created as a project, with 65 different artists illustrating the deck - and a woman as group coordinator manager. (The deck has 79 cards - The Happy Squirrel being the addition)
(I have another deck created in a similar manner, with a male as the group coordinator)

Important theme now - only 5 days since I last got the Elora Tarot from my Random Number Generator. Then the Seven of Cups, now Ten of Wands. Then about 'many choices', now 'over burdened' - a felling which only appears when I can't detach from the possible choices, and start seeing (read: thinking about) possibilities and choices as requirements, must-do:s and so on. That is, when I drag 'time' into the picture. When I create Psychological time instead of just relying on the present and 'clock time'!

"Learn to use time in the practical aspects of your life - we may call this "clock time" - but immediately return to present-moment awareness when those practical matters have been dealt with. In this way, there will be no buildup of "psychological time," which is identification with the past and continuous compulsive projection into the future." (link)

Obsessing about things 'that also have to be done', is giving away precious energy to the future - an illusion that never comes...! It's just so much more effective to use all the energy for the things you can do in the now - and then all the energy for the next thing - not wasting it in worrying about the things that can't, should or will be done!

Clock-time is the use of time without a heavy story attached to it, while psychological time is the use of time with a (Ego) story attached to it. The I have:s, I must:s, If I don't:s, or results, with different colours of fears attached to it. 

"Any lesson from the past becomes relevant and is applied now. Any planning as well as working toward achieving a particular goal is done now. The enlightened person's main focus of attention is always the Now, but they are still peripherally aware of time. In other words, they continue to use clock time but are free of psychological time. Be alert as you practice this so that you do not unwittingly transform clock time into psychological time.

For example, if you made a mistake in the past and learn from it now, you are using clock time. On the other hand, if you dwell on it mentally, and self-criticism, remorse, or guilt come up, then you are making the mistake into "me" and "mine": You make it part of your sense of self, and it has become psychological time, which is always linked to a false sense of identity." (link)

...and also become fertile soil for growing feelings of being over burdened (or 'not enough') - hence a highly self-made state! A made up Ego story.

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I can clearly sense and feel that it is the head being over burdened, and not something 'I am'. I'm by now quite confident in the knowing that it is not me being over burned - only me feeling overburdened.
Or rather, I'm also rather confident in my 'basic capacity' and that I will do everything that needs to be done, and do it well, in the end - it's the what, and the choosing part that creates the sensation of being over-burdened. The 'feeling what to do next (now)' part is very hard for me. I still have a hard time hearing 'the small still calm voice within' who knows what to to, because the intellectual mind shatter is so loud! There's much "planning with stories attached" going on. And there are so many voices on the outside giving the intellect fuel - people who continuously invite me into intellectual Ego-story-dances, with psychological time attached to it, which makes it even harder for me to hear my Soul's guidance. 
And when I can't hear (or feel) that voice and guidance I feel paralysed and highly uncertain on what to do next, and (nowadays) prefer to do nothing until clarity rises. Sometimes that takes a rather loooong time, to my Ego's irritation - who then start building up psychological time - stories about this and that or what ifs. 

The less I think about when or what to do, the better my life flows!
The more I leave the planning to the universe, and focus on the actual doing (in the now), the "faster and better" things get done - as I have more free energy to it! 

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Card: Ten of Wands
"Poor dear... She's herding cats"

Cats are (for me) symbols of integrity.
Not so much now, but I have had many dreams about cats.
I've had troubles with having integrity, and standing my (Soul's) ground, and knowing what I want, and stand up for what I (my Soul) need. Earlier in life I tried to solve the troubles and find my solely in my head - creating story after story, telling story after story.
Now I know better - but it's not anchored fully in my presence yet, patterns are still rolling, the pendulum is still swinging! 

Your eyes and intellect together tell you that the Earth is flat at first glance - are they really to be trusted and given the responsibility for and control of your life?

Deck #36: The Elora Tarot