The Devil, Chalice Tarot
Theme: bought as representing "Family" (but referring to the accompanying book it could also be named "navigating times of fear, hope and anxiety")
Card: The Devil
"In the Old Testament the word "satan" originally meant "adversary". In the book, Satan's role is to challenge both God and Job, literally playing the Devil's Advocate by ruthlessly challenging the integrity of the most cherished beliefs they possess."
"...without this testing, real self-knowledge may never be reached."
"Naturally, many people balk at this self-knowledge. It can be more comfortable to find a scapegoat for all these nastier, personal qualities instead."
"the Devil embodies our human desires, especially those that are linked to the material world. At its core, this card represents a negative relationship with others or self." (alittlesparkofjoy)
"The Devil card represents your shadow (or darker) side and the negative forces that constrain you and hold you back from being the best version of yourself. You may be at the effect of negative habits, dependencies, behaviours, thought patterns, relationships, and addictions. You have found yourself trapped between the short-term pleasure you receive and the longer-term pain you experience. Just as the Lovers card speaks to duality and choice, so too does the Devil; however, with the Devil, you are choosing the path of instant gratification, even if it is at the expense of your long-term well-being. In effect, you have sold your soul to the devil!"
"The Devil card often appears when you have been tricked into thinking you have no control over your shadow self or these negative forces, and that you can never break free from their hold. You believe you need it and you must have it, even if it means going against what you know to be right to obtain it. Deep down, though, you know it's to your detriment, and you are only doing yourself (and often others) a disservice when you cave in to these lower needs and desires." (biddy)
Admittedly - I should not drink alcohol. I rarely do, but every time I do, I can feel my body as well as my soul protesting. Even after small amounts.
I'm fooling myself that it's the "appropriate thing to do" sometimes. "To oblige".
When I, in fact, prefer to remain clearheaded, alert and really dislike how it affects my body.
There's room for improvement, or time to "grow a spine" maybe - to make a reconnection to yesterday's writings (and dream)!