The Devil, Girlfriend's Tarot
Theme: being a girlfriend
Card: The Devil
"Alright, now you can gasp. Because the Devil card signals that you've chained yourself to a bad situation, a bad person, bizarre circumstance or your own jonesing for vice and material goods."
I really have troubles being a girlfriend. I easily fall into the grip of the Devil. Commonly talked about as "Loosing myself", as if that was possible!
"The Devil card represents your shadow (or darker) side and the negative forces that constrain you and hold you back from being the best version of yourself. You may be at the effect of negative habits, dependencies, behaviours, thought patterns, relationships, and addictions. You have found yourself trapped between the short-term pleasure you receive and the longer-term pain you experience. Just as the Lovers card speaks to duality and choice, so too does the Devil; however, with the Devil, you are choosing the path of instant gratification, even if it is at the expense of your long-term well-being. In effect, you have sold your soul to the devil!" (biddytarot)
I get lost in outer circumstances, dependency, "doing" instead of "being", imagined expectations, should:s, would:s and thoughts.
So. Time to take a break from the good to make it better, and long-lasting.
This morning I dreamed about almost losing my wheels on the car, but stopping just in time not to crash. Several bolts had come loose on 2 wheels and the rims was falling apart on the same wheels. But I new I had other wheels to switch to, so there was an immediate solution available. It would leave me with 3 different rims on the car (as the two whole ones already was different from each other) but so what?
I also had a dream about water. A bathing place shallow in the beginning but quickly deepening. Super clear and calm water, rock solid bottom.