The Lovers, TaRat Tarot
Theme: "something's gnawing on you"
Oh, yes - do I have a relationship gnawing on me!!
And I also have the question "what the hell am i doing" spinning around in my head.
Deck: TaRat Tarot
Card: The Lovers (R)
"the heart, love, relationship, significant other"
R "strife or jealousy"
So, nothing is "happening" to me, then what is it that I truly have the opportunity to learn or grow now?
"The Lovers card is pure love and harmony. Reversed, it can signal a time when you're out of sync with those around you, particularly your loved ones. You may find your relationships are strained and communication is challenging. Does it seem as if you are just not on the same page and no longer share the same values? If so, come back to the reason you have this person in your life. If you love him or her unconditionally, know this moment shall pass and the best you can do is bring love and compassion to the situation."
"The Lovers reversed can also reflect that the feelings within a relationship are not mutual. One person may be more emotionally involved than the other, and this gap could lead to disappointment and insecurity later down the track. You may be reluctant to open your heart to the relationship for fear of getting hurt."
"...also speaks to self-love and respect. To what extent do you honour and accept who you are and the value you offer in this world?" (biddy)
And probably very much a case where I need to "get out of my head and in to my heart".
"...think again and choose the path most in alignment with your Highest Good - no matter how hard it might be."
"...can also suggest inner conflicts and being at war with yourself rather than with external forces. It indicates disharmony and a struggle to balance your inner union. Are you punishing yourself for something you have done or considered yourself responsible for? To help you out of this place, you will need to focus on articulating your personal belief systems and values. They will guide you in making better decisions next time." (biddy)
Time to find out what my heart and Highest Good want me to do/be.
And there's no better tool then the Tarot for this!