W9 + P9, Medicine Woman + Alchemy England

26.01.2020

Themes: healing + repressed or hidden fears

I love how my random number generator picks out decks for me! Tonight my Soul Manifestation Coach & Soulfriend Training begins. An education that allows for the opportunity to become a "Medicine Woman" - some kind of healer. Whether I will become this or not isn't the main thing in this moment (the present) - the opportunity and possibility is a built-in. I aim with my heart and intuition - not with my brain (thoughts) and eyes!
These was were immediate reflections when I saw the first card.

Medicine Woman Tarot: Nine of Arrows ('Nine of Wands')
"Overcome doubt and fear by trusting your decision."

Indeed - the Ego and Frightened Parts of my Personalty don't like this "blindfolded aiming". They feel out of control. They doubt, they fear and they resist. My Pain Body dislike that 'I' don't engage in this doubt and fear - and thereby nourish it. It's starving at the moment! It dislikes my silence!

One more card? Yes.

Alchemy 1977 England Tarot - the deck of repressed and hidden fear - hence, The Pain Body..!

This deck fits perfectly with the first drawn card in two ways. Partly because of the fear aroused by my "blindfolded aiming" already described, but also as it is these very fears that I intend to heal through the "Medicine Woman" education - both the fears that the education aims to 'heal' in me, and the same kind of fears that I will help others heal if I become a "Medicine Woman" (healer).

Alchemy 1977 England Tarot: Nine of Pentacles, reversed
Up-right: "Are you finally coming into your own? Have you been surrounding yourself with beautiful things? Has a love of the good things in life crept into your consciousness? When the enjoyable side of materialism dominates your days, the Nine of Pentacles is a card that will appear in your Tarot reading." (keen.com) - things that the Pain Body highly dislike!
Reversed: "Threat of safety, danger, loss" - How the Ego and Frightened Parts perceive the "blindfolded aiming" - the trusting in the heart, intuition and the universe, the sense of "losing control". Which in turn generates the fear and doubt (mentioned in the Medicine Woman card) that the Pain Body wants to feed on - and wants 'me' to engage in!

Something I calmly and happily don't!

Decks #88 and #2: Medicine Woman Tarot and Alchemy 1977 England Tarot.