Soulwork

Regarding finding "work/occupation" (or an equivalent) that resonates with my soul ('s mission).



2020-08-07

The Tarot of the Dead (I think: transformation, Astrology House 8 where I have my natal Chiron, and 8 is my Life Path Number)

1. What is your dream job - Knight of Pens (Wands)

Wands "Represents the fire of creativity, of putting thought into action." "This is a suit of freedom, of active change, and of seized opportunity..."
Knight "Unbridled enthusiasm. Adventurer. Journey. Optimistic person."
How to interpret this as "my dream job"?
"This Knight is riding his horse fast because of a sudden inspiration. Something can be solved and it is up to the Knight to get the solution out to the world." (keen)
"Energy, passion, inspired action, adventure, impulsiveness"
"You are bold and courageous and willing to venture into unknown territories to further your mission and your dreams. You don't really care if danger lies ahead - in fact, if it does, then it becomes all the more exciting and thrilling for you. Adventures like this light you up because you know growth and expansion are waiting on the other side." (biddy)
Maybe along the lines of "promoting transformation and true freedom through active change" - "awakening" through inspiration, and maybe through writing (Knight of Pens). 

2. How can you get there - The Empress

"Primal feminine ideals. Fecundity. Useful instincts and resourcefulness."
"Femininity, beauty, nature, nurturing"
"The Empress signifies a strong connection with our femininity."
"Bring your creative ideas into being by nurturing them and supporting their growth. Allow those designs and their manifestation to flow through you, acting with compassion and love." (biddy)
"Understand yourself and get in touch with your sensuality so that you can attract life circumstances to bring happiness and joy. She is a signal that be kind to yourself, to take care of yourself." (labyrinthos)
Not for nothing I have two uteruses symbolically hinting how I should proceed and advance in life?!
I like attract life circumstances to bring happiness and joy. I like nurture and support.

3. What qualities do you bring to the table - Ten of Reals (Pent's)

"Home. Security. Material comforts."
"Wealth, financial security, family, long-term success, contribution."
"You are financially secure and trust that, because of your personal successes and accomplishments, you will always have what you need and desire." (biddy)
And I guess it could be written as my "trust in the universe, that it provides everything I need", and that the thing I should bring to the table is "me - radiating this deep trust"? 
I also think of "experience" - associating reals with the fact that I have worked through a lot with and in myself, and have "movies to show/refer to".

4. Where can you find assistance - Five of Coffins (Cups)

"Disappointment." Isn't that a treat?! It surely fits with my 8th house Chiron - in pain there's healing. The path forward is through accepting disappointments of the mind? 
And admittedly, I always in some way or another rejoice when people (and myself) "feel bad", "brake down" or "experience problems" - as I know there's so much opportunities for growth hidden in it. Not for nothing my natal Chiron is in alignment with my Nodes.

5. What needs attention - Four of Pistols (Swords)

"Period of rest. Need to dream or free imagination. Necessary time of mourning" I really do need a lot of "me-time". Set aside time to breathe before making decisions - or instead of making decisions - allowing things to naturally unfold (my way of 'dream or free imagination'). I very often lay down on the floor, just resting, letting emotions settle, or mourn - letting sadness and pain be and heal in their own time. "I'm not cried out yet", as I said only 5 years old, when my father tried to comfort me and "make me stop crying". 
Again (as in the Five of Cups/Coffins above) - pain ain't something bad or wrong. It can certainly be a path forward, and maybe even THE path forward for me as it looks in this spread, considering the subject being 'career', quite an important area in ones life. 

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Very interesting outcome on this spread. Both deck-wise and card-wise.
And it correlates quite well with the previous one. "Passionate about - transformation", and the deck representing "the collective unconscious", which is "in need of awakening". Ten of Pentacles there being one of the "what am I good at". Non-physical guidance being hinted at as a way forward.


2019-11-16

Deck, chosen randomly from my collection, using a number generator:
Sirian Starseed (Theme: "if the collective unconscious could speak")

1. What am I passionate about?

XIV ALCHEMY
"...she explores the alchemical process of transmutation, wherby elements are combined to create new forms"
"...balancing aspects of our lives in order to move forward."
"spiritual healing"

SIX OF CRYSTALS
"...to be in harmony with that aspect (wealth and achievements) of her life and not let it become so weighty that she loses her perspective"
"...to be thankful for the gifts she has received from the earth"
"...preparing to hand the rose to the needy one."
"What is the gift she can share? It is the rose, the wisdom of knowing true beauty, which holds within it the greater understanding of what truly matters for us all."

ADEPT OF CRYSTALS
Crystals:
"...celebrating the energies of this reality"
"...manifest spirit into form, ..., and the examination of the true value of possession versus spirit"
"life is about being enough"
Adept:
"the Adept moves along the path of earthly experience, seeking mastery. She is passionate, at times impulsive, filled with vitality and determination to advance in her sphere of influence."

Personal summary(2019-12-22): Transformation - balance - creating light

2. What am I good at?

IV REASON
"...brings order and structure to the dynamic forces"
"...to the artistic design (s)he brings structure; to unrestrained imagination (s)he brings reason; to chaos (s)he brings order."
"Reason contemplates bringing structure to the creative flow of imagination and being grounded in reality."
"...vulnerability on the one hand and her allowing for possibilities beyond her own rationale on the other."

TEN OF CRYSTALS

"When you understand true abundance, you know that you can always create more and that it is all about your ability to give, to receive, and to keep the flow of energy moving through your life."

SEVEN OF FLAMES
"As she weathers the storm of her previous creation, she regains her stature... yet she remains in a defensive position. She now realises what she has evoked in the others and how she has fuelled their reactions. Once she descends from her pedestal, she will surely have a clearer picture of how to share her passion and vision for all to celebrate. It will require egoless service, compassion, and the pure vision to stoke the passion that burns in the hearts of others."

Personal summary(2019-12-22): Reason - celebration - face challenges

3. How can I combine them?

IX REFLECTION
"spiritual guidance"
"giving of one's self to love"
"right mind over the senses"
"true strength"
"rest and reflect on all that has been learned"
"far from the distraction of people and events, and back to the quiet nature"
"restoring peace in the mind and soul"

Personal summary (2019-12-22): through reflection, and letting answers come to me via non-physical guidance

4. How do I make this happen?

SEVEN OF CRYSTALS
"After much labor and long journeys of exploration into one's motivation in life, the 'Seven of Crystals' rests."
"A young merchant has spread his carpet out to sell his polished crystals and so receive the rewards of his efforts - but for now no one is interested. He is waiting for the buyers to come."
"...contemplating the value of his work, perhaps even the point of it all, and while he does admire what he has accomplished, he seems to question it at the same time. He looks at the few coins that he has received in exchange for his beautifully perfected, polished crystals, and it appears he is concerned that the potential rewards are nowhere to be found. At the very least, it seems they are nowhere near to meeting his expectation."
"Do you feel frustrated that your efforts are producing little or nothing compared to what you expected and hoped for?"

Authors comment (2019-11-16) : I think I here (#4) got the answer for how I DO it, as of (until) now, and feel about it all - rather than how I could/should make it happen, which I think next card gives a hint about. The card that actually follows the above.

Personal reflection(2019-12-22): I should still offer my gifts (from a place of Love, not Fear), but not be attached to the outcome? And then "eventually", "when the time is (I am) ripe"? ...

5. Advice for the path?

EIGHT OF CRYSTALS
"...the doubts and dissatisfaction of the Seven of Crystals have been surpassed. Not only does our hero realise that his work has value, but also that he is able to make it even more significant, beautiful, and utterly remarkable. His desire to produce more has been enhanced, and he is back in the saddle, building on what he has already established to create even more."
"(S)he has re-established his faith in his vision and his pride in his achievements."
"...if you work at your dreams, if you carve away at your goal with determination, steadfastness, and skill, you will eventually reach them."

Personal reflection (2019-12-22): do the above (card 4), but (as reflected under it) do it with detachment, without expectations - that is, sincere offering from a place of unconditional love and not fear (conditional "love")? Not for fame, appreciation, attention, money, reputation, but for the sake of giving what I am born to give?